Goodbye, 2013

Last day of 2013. Still, in UK, same like last year.
2013 is a great and happy year. awesome! i have had experienced many things in this year that i have never thought before. i had white chinese new year, trip to Paris with friends, got over the PP3 nightmare, passed year 3 exams, got to gain experience during summer pharmacy placement, meet up with hometown friend and travel to Manchester and Liverpool, trip to Highland, Scotland with bestie, back to Malaysia and reunited with all family members again after so long, meet up with friends, dates with my love ;) , and had a once a lifetime chance to tour Germany and Switzerland for 13 days during winter with 11 of us! it was an awesome one! a really really good year. i don't demand much for 2014, it will be good enough if it's like year 2013. GOODBYE 2013, HELLO 2014! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!

Glasgow→Ipswich

So travelling alone ✓! It was very exciting! One backpack and a handbag, got on to train, underground at london, few changes of train to arrive at Ipswich train station after 6.5 hours and finally walked for a distance to a meeting point. yay meeting point! Guess who I was meeting? A guy, who gives me a lot of suggestions, personal thoughts and positive advices, play and eat together. hehehe my brother!

This is the underground in London

 Stayed in his room for two nights, and his room is in a mess. I won't blame him, a guy's room used to be like that. we chat, we talked, we played games, we Skyped with family and we eat together again after so long. [and ya, he tickled me as usual]. I feel the warmth when staying with him. 

After two nights on weekends, I left in the morning. As usual he has to go to work. Plug in earphones, sit on the train seat, the music player was playing a sad song randomly. Suddenly, tears began to well in my eyes. Yea, kind of homesick, I guess. I was getting better after an hour on the train. Back to Glasgow after another 6.5 hours. 

The morning view of Ipswich

Hello December

here it comes the end of the year. it is not the end yet, but almost. what i have done through year 2013! nightmare at the beginning, fun during summer, and hopefully it will end with happiness!
what so special on December in UK which cannot be found in Msia. the Christmas atmosphere! the decorations on the streets, the christmas trees, the displays, the lights, the songs and musics, the shopping sales and the food have presented a joyful atmosphere!  

random

hahaha how i wished the exam is at 1.30am later instead of 1.30pm tomorrow. hohoho.

逗陣ㄟ

kinda homesick after watching this 2013 taiwan movie 逗陣ㄟ. the kid 汪筠書 is very good in acting! so natural. this movie is a comedy film with touching storyline. no doubt, tears as companion tonight. love from family is always an infinity. omgggg i miss home seriously. this movie is strongly recommended!

Nottingham games

now i know why my friends whom went to Nottingham Games last year never want to go this year. generally that was just a sport event where all Malaysian students assemble. it will be fun if you participate in the games, or meet up with friends there. Neither of those, then it will be bored. and i am shocked with the amount of people, at least few thousands. 

we departed from Glasgow at 12.30am, it took 6 hours to arrive Nottingham Uni. that was torturing! i miss my bed. I have no idea why Nottingham was so cold that day. feet and fingers numbed, could not feel anything. we had to walk like 20 mins from bus stop to the sports hall where all people were waiting. the different thing was that all are speaking Malaysian languages, as in English, Mandarin, BM and any languages in Malaysian style, especially sentences ending with la and lo. oh ya, opening ceremony started with Negaraku. 

we went to city centre to had breakfast, had a short walk and back to the uni to wait to go back home. surprisingly, there was an coincidence when i bumped up few friends! again, it was torturing while waiting the time to pass. all of us were in sleepy, cold, tired and hungry state. no food to eat. went crazy that time. luckily i had chocolate as a relief from a friend. finally it's 7.30pm, got on to the bus and took another 6 hours to reach back home. totally exhausted. but we had fun, at least for the first few hours. hehehe.

hospital placement

today was a long day! back from Edinburgh hospital placement and i found i am actually quite interested to work in hospital, specifically Scotland. apparently it's impossible to get a chance hehehe so i have cherished the moments during these placements. experience ✓

what doesn't kill you make you stronger. i will not be beaten by a little thing. what i have to do is to work on it and let me conquer it with my best. motivating myself to look forward! hehehe i am learning to be optimistic. i always believe being positive may change what is going to happen the next sec! i believe i can. go go go! :D

Mpharm pub crawl

Here's the another year of October! joined our Mpharm pub crawl and it was Pirate-themed! there was around 300 students participated and four double-decker buses were fully seated by us! That was fun, busy taking photos as this is the last year of uni life. Only managed to get a Vodka mix in a club because it was too packed to get a drink in the few previous pubs.

happy

lying on bed. thinking of you. I am very happy today! thank you! ;)

散沙

人家说期望越高失望越大。
说得对，如果没有期盼，就不会有失望。
一次又一次。
真搞不懂意义何在。
原来一直所期盼的，只不过是像被风吹过的沙。

敲一敲自己的脑袋，告诉自己别傻了，被风吹过的沙就是盘散沙。

观后感

“我希望在爱里，继续活下去，活得比爱还要久。
我相信这个世界上一定会有一个你爱的人.
他会穿越这个世间汹涌的人群，一一地走过他们。
怀着一颗用力跳动的心脏，捧着满腔的热和沉甸甸的爱，走向你，捉紧你。
他一定会找到你的。你要等。” 《小时代2》
大家需要的只是耐心。

“你能明白,只要一想起某个人,心就会绞着疼的那种感觉吗？” 《分手合约》
人人都听过要学会珍惜身边的人。那到底真正学会‘珍惜’的人有多少个？往往被珍惜的都是已经是失去的。大家都应该学会去珍惜那些家人、情人、朋友近在咫尺的幸福~

“妈妈说一道彩虹是半圆，两道彩虹是团圆，等到有一天，天上有两道彩虹的时候，我就可以跟我爸爸团圆了” 《新天生一对》

很温馨的亲情片。生活的路坎坷，会遇到许多挫折。逃避，不如坦然面，再努力。

right timing

timing is everything. don't you think it is the key of everything. if you have missed a timing to do something, you will not have the chance to return, you loss it forever. or when you want to do something, that might not be the right timing to do so and turned up to have an opposite outcome. if you catch the right timing at the right moment with the right person, it will give you the best result ever. what you need is patience. you may have to wait for the right timing to come. if you have caught it, it's not ended, but started. there are more things to be done to pull each other closer, not physically, but the both hearts. trust builds a strong relationship, full with secures and promises, no lies, no excuses and no broken promises. if he/she is important to you, he/she will find a way for you, instead of an excuse.  if he/she did, appreciate and cherish him/her. :) i appreciate i have had all of those, timing, moment, person. all have to be started with a right timing at right moment with right person. 

travel soon

i need motivation. motivation to carry on. i think i have to plan something great to keep me moving. all my loved ones in Malaysia, what shall I do. wake up, eat, online and sleep. it repeats everyday. i think travelling may help! there are too many places that i wished to go around. basically in the UK and Europe: Italy, France, Prague, Budapest, Athens, Germany, Spain, Portugal etc. shall pick few and just go. 

one of my wishes is to travel with my beloved in future! so the photo won't be that lonely. hehehe :)

被偷走的那五年

watched this series in the morning once i woke up. tears streaming down my face non-stop. it's a very touching movie. this movie reminds everyone to cherish people you love and who loves you. but, don't compare between our life and the movies. reality is not exactly like the scenes in movies. the super romance or the separation between loved ones in life or death are rarely happened in reality. instead, we can slow down our footstep, and feel the love around you. we may not be able to be honest all the time, but a little doubt and suspect can cause a big difference in life. it will simply leave a crack and break a relationship. trust is the key of solution. yet it is not easy as it is not built at once,  but accumulates from days to days. cherish the people you love, try to build trust on them if they are worth to stay in your life! this movie is highly recommended. :')   

游戏

有一场游戏，听似简单。

也许大家都能做到。

日子久了，

它也许会成了一种习惯。

那一个习惯，

我不想，也不要。

那一场游戏，

我玩不起。:)

relax!

final year just started and the stresses are going to overwhelm. telling myself just relax and stop stressing myself. keep calm and just go on as i know i can choose to be happy! life is what you make of it, so make the most and enjoy. keep smiling, because you can. ;)

hello Glasgow

arrived in Glasgow safe and sound after a long duration.  I was very sad when I was on the plane. being free and pampered at home for two months. the love of family is always unforgettable. i read a card and cried like a baby. the guy sitting next to me was looking at me, wondering what's happening. I refused to look at him.  I wiped away the tears but that's not gonna to stop. even worse when listening to songs. in the end I just closed my eyes, placed a handkerchief over my eyes and let it be. it worked finely after an hour. tear glands totally dried up. i am alright now :) has been a long day! and yeah, I feel the most sincere love from each of them, that's why I was sad. no worries, i am happy happy now :D

this was how I look like after that, emo ha hahaha

bye Msia

this ain't the first time i leave home. but why i still can't control my tears. the tears well in my eyes and dropped uncontrollably. even worse than last year. feeling sad.

countdown

i have done one thing before back to Malaysia few months ago.

now i am repeating it again before back to Glasgow. 

repeating over and over again.

Countdown. 10 days from today.

rainy day

is rainy day makes your day full of thoughts more than usual? for me, yes. I have no idea why. You can see the raindrops falling very quickly on the floor, just like it took away all the worries and unhappiness at once, swiftly. i like the way i think which it takes away my pessimistic minds, but sometimes it brought up unnecessary mind and it has just threw off an awful vibe. however, rain will stop, it never rains forever. the good thing is that there is only a rainbow after a little rain where happiness can be found. everything will be solved one day, with subtle ordeal during the process :) 

Vampire Diaries

waiting for the Season 5. Damon with Elena? or Stefan? Is Lexi back? Caroline with Klaus? Bonnie? 

how about all the other originals? let's see starting from 3rd of October. hehe. soon! :) 

'My Girlfriend is a Gumiho'

just finished watching this series 'My Girlfriend is a Gumiho'. i have watched this few years back and recently just feel like reminiscing it. the starrings are so cute and pretty! this song is so addictive for now. like likeee! :D

喜欢就是喜欢

很多事情一旦喜欢上了就是喜欢上了。

中秋节快到了。

每个广场都在介绍各式各样的月饼。

口味一年比一年多。

莲蓉的、芋头的、巧克力的、榴莲的、绿茶的、黑芝麻的。

再多口味，个人还是最喜欢传统的莲蓉馅月饼。

喜欢就是喜欢，原汁原味的那个。

汤圆。

巧克力的、黑芝麻的、花生的、红豆的，绿豆的。

听起来就怪怪的。

最喜欢的还是无馅的汤圆。

喜欢就是喜欢，原汁原味的那个。

事情。

伤心的、开心的、无聊的、有意义的。

有人很客观面对、有的很悲观、有的容易接受，有的无法相信。

谁不喜欢开心的事，谁不想客观面对。

喜欢就是喜欢，不开心也要开心的事情。

人也是一样。

好的坏的、帅的美的、善良的、贴心的、酷酷的、可爱的。

唯一不同的是感觉。

喜欢就是喜欢，那个傻傻的你。

人事物，都一样。

Congratulations

Attended to my brother's convocation last month. The hall is laden with flowers, families and friends with joys and excitements. That's a process of transformation, no longer a student. They are going to start the career and start their new journey. Congratulations to all of them!

I am going to step onto the final year of my course soon, and graduate. It ain't easy. Will go confidently in the direction and live the life that I have imagined. I promised I will do my very best to achieve it. But now, enjoying the holidays, with all the love ones. Family, Friends and You.

Readings

EAT PRAY LOVE

I have bought this book long time ago but never get a chance to finish it. It's a travelogue by a novelist and journalist, Elizabeth Gilbert. She was reeling from a divorce and undergone depression and loneliness. Then she has decided to explore and seek for spirit sacredly. She went to 'Three I's' - Italy, India and Indonesia. She meditates from day to night repeatedly until she found the balance and totally healed herself. In the end, she found her true love, a Brazilian man who always calls her ''darling'' and says something like ''You can decide to feel how you want to, but I love you and I will always love you". 

HAVE A LITTLE FAITH 

A book by Mitch Albom. This book is refreshingly simple as it tells the stories of two men who are  very different but they have a little faith through their lives. It tries to lead the readers for final conclusion. It is a journey. But I still don't get there. It is only recommended for anyone who wants a true, thought-provoking story.

月老红线

《月老》
大家都知道死亡是最痛苦的离别。
黑人牙膏的离别 让小咪产生了对忘记爱情的强大念力
月老们尽管再努力地帮小咪绑上红线 但都全通失败 
黑人牙膏对爱拥有的勇气 现实生活中很少见到
他要看着对方找到幸福，亲手为她绑上红线。

不管有没有做过坏事，只要好事做得不够多，就不能上天堂。
其实地狱没有很可怕，可以选择投胎或者当神职积阴德。
原来不可思议的爱情，有的是月老们的恶作剧，有的是丘比特的失误。
有些事情，一万年也不会变。
这是九把刀的创意。

《红线》
彦翔是个胖子但是有着机灵的脑袋。
他失去了一段美好的爱情，惋惜。
为了要寻回那段爱情，他用了爱情晶片植入子晴的脑袋里。
只要启动晶片，他们的爱情就好像回到过去一样。
他不择手段的勇气，是对与错，就由自己去判断。
也许没有对与错，因为这就是他们的爱情。

Mistake

I have made a mistake as a friend. A mistake that it keeps for very long. I am not really sure whether that's actually a mistake, or I am just being myself. After realization, I have to make some changes to myself, hopefully. Not a big step, may be step by step. I don't mean to hurt anyone, or cause any disappointments. I am sorry if I have caused that. Nothing can be done now, I don't know what to do, let time heals, or let go.

Wishes

Yes, i have wishes. some can be told but some couldn't. it's a bit awkward and awful to say here, so i'll keep to myself, or anyone i feel like to. basically the most important one will be my family and friends, hope they stay happily and healthy, and safely. they are part of my heart. i don't want to see any part of mine leave me. i am selfish, because i love each of them. 

七夕情人节快乐

一年有那么多情人节，你记得几个呢？

农历七月七，很熟悉，想起牛郎织女，既是中国的情人节。

很多人说一切随缘吧！但有人说缘分是由自己创造出来，要的是机会。

而我认为，

生命中，有一個人可以去惦念，是緣分；

有一個人可以惦念自己，是幸福。

不管什么说法，缘分与幸福仅此而已。

祝大家七夕情人节快乐。

Liquid, Love

Liquid, wet, evaporate, disappeared.

It is disappeared if it's water. it gives stain other than water.

Love, showed, no turning back.

It is the same. when you have showed your love towards anyone, there is no turning back. it gives happiness if you have met your Mr/Mrs Right. or sadness if it's not, eventually time allows it to fade and heal slowly.

but all of us only has one life, don't miss any chance of that or you can see regrets. Just follow your feelings. 

风车与风

其实风车代表什么。

它位于一条溪旁，一片草原。

也许它代表坚信，对风的坚信。

而我觉得它代表思念。

风车旋转的动力来自风。

风车与风简直就是一个对比列。

对风的思念越大，风车旋转得越快。

寂寞的重量因思念而异。
因为思念，才有寂寞。

一阵阵风拂过脸颊，静静的看着那风车，正吹着一阵阵思念的风。

父亲节快乐

有一个人

大家都觉得他好严肃

可是

当我们出生时就好像欠了我们一世似的

把所有的好都给我们

他用了好一辈子的时间在工作

只为了要让我们拥有最好的

小时候

他带我们到处去玩

到海边到公园到游乐场

那些留下的回忆

一直都印记在脑海里

时间过得可真快

二十多年了

我们长大了

他的白发渐渐长了

但他给的好

滋润着我们。

我们却长了翅膀，逐渐离开家
但是家永远只有一个，
我会回去的。

当我们瘦了，他心疼

当我们胖了，他开心。

他就是我们一生只有一个的绝世好爸爸！

爸，父亲节快乐！谢谢您！

我们爱你 :D 记得照顾身体啊！

countdown! :D

i cannot believe i am going to meet my parents in UK next Sunday! weeee, that is the only motivation for now to get rid of the tiredness and stresses from work.despite, i am enjoying the placement here. working in dispensary and serve customer! and ya, brainstorming session by the boss. that's the interesting part as i can learn much medications and actually remember them. ;) i countdown everyday. working days less than ten from today, but i still feel time passes very slowly these few days. come on, i know it's because i am looking forward to travel! can't wait, really can't wait! excitement overloads! :D

June

It's June! since young i always think that June is my month! it's not just because of my birthday falls on June, apart from that, i feel June is a really pleasing month to go. It's the middle of the year, everyone is going to say, ''wow, time flies! it's June, left half of a year to go''. It's even more great for primary and secondary school students, as you know there are holidays on June! that's why i like June since young, still, just one of the reasons. It's summer in June! this is the one i favored when i have came to UK. the sunshine glares, flowers bloom, wind blows! just nice for everything. 

It's birthday of my mum. not able to make a card for her as I was very busy on finals previously, bought a card and sent back home. i may want to say 'thank you' to my grandmother as well, so i could have the greatest mum in the world. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! wishing you to be healthy and happy all the times, we, as your kids are always with you! :* 

This coming June is going to be very happening! currently doing summer placement at a new place, then later  travelling with parents when they first come to UK and brother's convocation! can't wait :D

move on

alright, i have accepted the fact, and move on. life still goes on right. just that the heart needs some time to accept the fact of which my brain has already known. thank you for being there, i know you are free enough to talk to, while stalking people. hahaha. see, i laughed! :D

Random

又是一个宁静的夜晚
来到了午夜一点钟
一杯咖啡足以让一夜不眠
夜深人静的时候
人嘛，总是会想很多
明明不存在的问题
却得把它想得很出神入化。

在这个时候，
多希望有人能阻止这个举动
但我想因时差的关系
想找个了解我的人
就算是聊天舒解情绪压力
都非常困难。

只好把它释放在这
让它埋没在这世界里。

一个人，
能让你多少快乐，
就能带走你多少的快乐。

也许是闹不合的不快乐，
或许是离别的不快乐。

珍惜眼前所有，未来无人知啊！

UBAH

all news and photos about UBAH are posted when i just on my FB. keep scrolling down, still all about UBAH! yeah UBAH! although i am not able to vote yet, but i feel touched when i saw all these. all are so united just for a better Malaysia! 一种莫名的感动涌上心头。hopefully, UBAH! i just saw a slogan, 1758, means UBAH together! suddenly feel sad i am not able to contribute in it, but mentally, SUPPORT! Pray for my home, Malaysia :D

will there have a miracle? hopefully...

Best luck!

Buddha says ''The mind is everything, what you think, you become''. so, my mind thinks i can do it! will it come true? a question mark still! anyway i am trying to be positive (B+), and will try my best to do it! OVERCOME it! jiayou jiayou!

Sleep

again, i just could not have a sound night's sleep yesterday. i have endured it once again. i tell myself it is going to an end, hopefully. there is something inside my heart  blocking my way, makes it a bit heavier than usual. it is invisible, undetectable. it just needs some time to accept what my brain thinks and how the reality is.

Bonjour!

YAY!

BONJOUR BONJOUR!!

I am back from Paris, a very lovely city of lights, monuments and world famous building! it's a place where everyone wished to go to, with lover, with friends, or alone. it is incredibly fun! The first place we went was Les Tuileries Garden. That is one of the most elegant gardens in Paris. Unfortunately, what we saw were deciduous trees as it was so cold yet for the flowers to bloom and leaves to grow. We were strolling along the gravel pathways on a sunny day!

The next we went to Le Palais Garnier. It is National Opera in Paris. It is an opera house, its interior is magnificent and glamorous with those big chandeliers! It hosts music performances, opera and ballet. We wandered through the displaying cases and miniature around, by guessing the meaning as the descriptions are all in French.

the next part is the amazing one! I could never believe the Eiffel Tower is right infront of me, seeing it with my sight and taking photos with it! the most exciting path was, stepping on it! enjoying the sunset on the summit of the tower. It's windy and it's cold, we shivered, and it was obvious enough to make the foreigners laughed at us! Despite, it is very fascinating, I enjoyed taking photos with friends, with the lovely scenery!

We ended up our day by dropping off at a station and took photos with Arc de Triumph. It is a very famous monument in Paris. I have no idea about its history, but i can see that it actually has a nice sculpture!

The second day, all of us have promoted to a cultured person. We went to churches and museum. Early in the morning, we have been to another popular landmark, Basilica of the Sacré Cœur (Basilica of Montmartre). It is a church and located at the top of a hill, have a great view of Paris.

After a while, we went to Sainte-Chapelle, a royal chapel in Paris. The stained-glass windows is the feature that makes it impressive but too bad we didn't go into the chapel as it needs entry ticket, we saved it for the following use. 

Visited another church, Notre Dame, a cathedral with Gothic architecture. Its organ is unique and the bells in the tower features it. 

We didn't get to see the bells because we knew we were going to spend longer in the next museum we were going to, Le Musée du Louvre. It is very famous art gallery in Paris! You know why? because there is a portrait located inside the museum that snatched everyone's attention! Mona Lisa portrait! the funny thing is, i was in a crowd with the others to take photo with it as well ;) would be a waste if i didnt do that! No doubt, we spent 5 hours inside the museum, that's one of the the largest museums in the world! Le Musée du Louvre contains many collections of antiques, sculptures, statues, and painting portraits. There are many painters were having drawing session under supervision of a teacher. By the time we came out, it's night! we took photos with The Louvre Palace and the Pyramid, one word to describe, gorgeous!

can see? because of Mona Lisa

the next day, we went to the most interesting, most memorable, most marvelous place: Disneyland Paris! we spent the whole day and night there! We were having fun like a kid, back to the childhood, and had rides, took photos with disney characters and toys, every single scenes! the most elegant is the Disney Dreams! It is a nighttime show in the Disneyland, Paris We are lucky because it is 20th anniversary! it played with musics, water fountain, lasers, lights, accurate projection and fireworks! i will never forget the show! AWESOME!!

we have little communication problem in Paris, yet we were able to get what we wanted to eat, reach where we wanted to go! All of us had less than 20 hours sleep in 5 days, but we had much time for fun! i appreciate i have the chance to travel around! i am gonna miss the pastries in Paris! i will miss the fun as well! :D