disappointment

ah feel very sad now.
didn't get what i wanted.
to be said correctly, imu wanted.
i expected results would be like this,
but still upset.
maybe the exam fees are costly, though i am not the one who paid it.
for some of us, the english test is a barrier in our studies.
a big barrier.
hope to overcome it but possibilities are low.
so now,
what's life?
it ends?
i am sad :'( i hate the feel of disappointment.